Fear. It catches my deep breath. Gots me into a continuous introspection. A battle it’s about to make its appearance. Defeat scars keeps me overwhelmed. Feeling trapped into a wide ocean of wonders. Perhaps, maybe, perhaps. Try, don’t try, try again, feel, live, don’t regret. Substantial thoughts. Feelings need to stand still, need to hold’em up. Don’t need to look forward, don’t need to remain past. Need to throw things by; release myself. Unlocked, I wish to be. Misunderstood are not allowed anymore. Has not to be hard every time, don’t wanna lose the way out, don’t wanna lose the shy frequency, but it all has to fly out. Away. I’ll grab my blinky conscience and get back to the track. Fear, release away from my mind, from my heart. Don’t need to call it nightmare, but not close enough to become a dream, just want to be awake.

Wanna have my square room, wanna shout out and run away. Slow up! I want to ride into that fast black train, gotta hold on and stare back. Blush me on and don’t let me fall. Past should stay dogged in, just bring the new smiles and rain will clear days by.


DSC03080

That I would be good even if I did nothing

that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down

that I would be good if I got and stayed sick

that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt

that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth

that I would be great if I was no longer queen

that I would be grand if I was not all knowing

that I would be loved even when I numb myself

that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed

that I would be loved even when I was fuming

that I would be good even if I was clingy

that I would be good even if I lost sanity

that I would be good

whether with or without you